31.12.2023

I had decided

That for the sake of self preservation

I'd regard the New Year as insignificant, to 

Do nothing to mark the occasion

And yet

In the upper right-hand corner of my phone's screen, it reads 

"11:48"

And I feel as though the seconds are ticking down to my execution. 

11:49

I wish it would pass 

Unceremoniously as any other night

But this night is different from 

All other nights;

On this night, the heel of a boot grinds into me

The coarse white ashes of my previous life

Abrasive

Leave tender, and bloody, and raw indentations. 

11:52

11:53

Alone. 

11:54

בדד

11:55

לעולם ועד 

11:56

חלאס

נמאס לי

Enough.